m16

oh my god i swear i was most excited for this. so anyways, our shooting place or they call it "medan tempur" is at the sungai besi perdana kem or something. when we got there, the 44 of us(the others learnt their theory already) was learning the theory and stuff, and half way was this bangbangbang sound, like those you hear in war movies. i swear i was SCARED. it sounded so real-wait, it was real. so anywayss, the army guy was teaching how to handle the gun and stuff so then it was my turn to try and reherse. i was standing and the army guy took a stick and shouted

"aku cukup pantang orang yang tak ikat tali kasut ketat ketat!!"

i was like :O
so then he got down and tied both my laces together. i just stood there. then he screamed again

"kau nak buat ape sekarang??? bukak la. kalau tak hang nak baring mcm mana?"

i was damn scared okay i seriously just stood there, thank god there was another army who was nice enough and untied my laces for me. phew! they're brutal i tell you. one of them gave one of my girl friend pumping and he kicked her hand half way! damn.and when the theory class was over and done with everyone grabbed the gun and started posing and being all sakai with it. haha
detail 27 sasaran 10.
so during the real shooting time, i gotta admit i was having chills. i got down on the ground and held the gun. oh my god at the time i was nervous. in my head i was like

i can't do this
i can't do this
i can't do this

when i was about to fire BANG the girl next to me fired her shot. damnnnnnnnnnnnnnn it was so LOUD. seriously loud. i jumped, i almost cried. at the time i wanted to leave. because god knows why, suddenly in my head popped images of palestine. and coincidencely few weeks before ustadz was showing us images of war. like as if i was imagining myself in the middle of war zone. again,

i can't do this

i tak sanggup. i was like, so this is how it feels to kill people.
i seriously almost quit. but then i was like.....noooooo....this is once in a lifetime chance. so i just gave it a shot. and hell, my first shot i shoot the longkang! hahahahaha
after the first first shot, i recovered.
after the twentieth shot, i became emo.
the whole day i was thinking of war.
damnnnn.
people all around the world should stop violence!
make love not war!
damn those jews. poor thing :(